Less than Desirable

The last few days have been sort of tough.  I knew when i was going back to the gym that I wanted to talk to someone about training because the sensations were so weird. So it was good to get to talk to a PT at MGH the other day.  But the unfortunate part is the fact that i'm basically completely impatient.  She said that everything I was doing was good. Go slow, not too much stretching, work on cardio and core.  So thats easy enough.  But at the same time she said it can take up to a year to feel normal.  God I hope not.  I mean I really want to get back to being a bad ass sooner then that.  And now that i have to see this commercial regularly

Its not helping...not at all.  I am still being good but I just want to feel normal again.  God damn it.'

Second less desirable.  Grad school update
Western Carolina - NO
so just waiting to hear from Georgia state...but i'm not expecting anything.  I mean i try not to think that my potential career is just not happening.  But its not looking good.  At this point I just want to be able to close that chapter and move on. So come on GSU....give it to me.  And incase you were wondering I'm not expecting to get off the waitlist at MGIHS.  So whatever. Maybe i'll move to new zealand and heard sheep.  I know someone out there would agree with me. :)

The only good thing is that i got my midterm back.  And did really well.  Go figure.  I really just want that to be over. But i have to be done by the 19th of march so its almost done.  I have the final scheduled so i just have to go and type my brains out.  I might not even study.  Its not like it matters at the moment.  

Off to have some Peanutbutter cup icecream and go to bed. 

Current wall of cards

Or otherwise known as the wall of love

Graduation day

I officially graduated from the infusion room. I went in today to get my last neulasta shot today so I'm officially done. I am so at peace! It is odd though that something that has really been part of my life for the last two months is over. I'm thrilled that it's over but not I have to find normalcy again. Which it's really been almost three months since normal behavior. So I've forgotten what it's like. I'll find it again. But I seriously have to think about it alittle. Also there is the aspect that I still get really tired so I don't have a whole lot of options during the week anyways. But I definitely won't get ahead of myself.

On the docket for the rest of the weekend. Watch a million episodes of the L word and take a million naps :)

New names

My mom mentioned before I really started things up that part of going through cancer is you develop a weird kind of morbid sense of humor. It that vane I want to make a list of all the new names for me head in its new state
Cue ball
Beach ball
Bowling ball
Cucumber head
Fuzz head
And my favorite
Peach head

Last call

Today is the last chemo. I'm actually almost done with treatment. Which is so weird because all the previous times not only did I start an hour earlier then the previous times, but also I haven't had any issues... Which has happened the previous times. Soo woot woot. I'm almost done.

Unfortunately I've actually been sort of nauseaous all day. I hope this is not a sign for the rest of the weekend. But we'll just have to wait and see. At least I know I have lots of apple sauce. I

That's all for now. Getting out of here shortly

Ah :)

Midterm done
I'm exhausted

Midterm time

Off to take my exercise physiology midterm and hoping I don't get evangelized to in the mass bay caf. Wish me luck