Why NPs are awesome

I had a moment today that made me realize how much I want to be an NP or I guess why I want to be a good one. 

Some people are aware of my desire to become a nurse and it was this interaction that had made me realize again the important it is to have good people to talk to in medical situations and the importance of having someone there that can "talk you off the ledge". I also know I could be that person.

  I had been sort of freaking out about a few things and in the end the reasons don't matter. But I called my Doctor to come in and be seen. And because I could see her quicker they have me an appointment with the NP.  So I went in and went through the whole rigamaroll of what had been going on and how I was feeling, and see listened attentively. And when I was done said "ok we're going to do a full exam". She did the exam and then re-read some reports. And gave her opinion about what was to be done. Everything she said was very reasonable and she gave me her idea of the plan. 

The most magical part of the experience was after she finished her "we should do this.... " speach she asked me how I felt about it. It felt so egalitarian and in asking she acknowledged my fears and legitimized the freak out. And that was great. In doing that I realized a bit more that I'm doing the right thing, I'm fine and things will work out. 

Granted it's still hard for me to feel that way. REALLY hard depending on the day, but taking the edge off was great. 

Side note : she used the words "hot mess" more then once... Which surprisingly made things better. 

So why are NP's awesome. Because she took the time, listened and rationalized my fears, but didn't allow my fears to drive her decisions. She made me feel 50% less crazy, and that I was doing the right thing.  My main hope is that someday I will be able to do that for someone else. And in taking the 45 min out of my day, help someone make it through a tense few months. 

Yoga teacher training wk 9

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I can't believe that it's almost over. I mean it's been going on for a long time and I can't believe that I will be a "graduated" yoga teacher in another week. I mean crazy.  I don't feel ready, and I know I'm going to have to dive in and continue to practice and learn. But it's so weird to think I'm going to be teaching real people in real classes really soon. YIKES!!! 

So of course with the impending end of training what does that mean for training weekend, oh you guessed it. LOTS of practice teaching.  Apparently they started teaching the flow in chunks but going all the way through so that's cool. Friday we went through more anatomy and modifications for injuries. Which is really important because you need to know how go keep people safe in your class. It always ok to say you don't know but the more that you know the better off you'll be. 

Saturday brought teaching in chunks. The cool thing about this method is that I got to teach twice in one day. Which of course was stressful but fun too, twice the practice in the same day.   I noticed a big difference between the two times. I wouldn't say that either were great, but it brought up different things. Mainly I notice a big difference when I'm not grounded. Which is a really good thing to know. I think I'm at the point now where I need to notice what makes things feel off so that I can work to change that the next time. I mean certain times you are going to be off but it's good to know what that feels like. 

Sunday was a bit of a mishmash of things. We started off with a meditation. Which was nice, the more practice with those the easier it is. Did some practice teaching, I had to do the damn triangle series again. I think my main problem is I find the whole thing kind of awkward. I mean it starts off ok and then goes in an order that seems extremely unnatural to me. The one major good thing about that is I know it is weird to others cause when we first were learning it then other teachers had trouble explaining it how it's written in the manual.  So I know it's not just me. 

After we were done a few of us went to Masa for dinner. Yummy food and really great company. And as if we really didn't want it to end, there may have been a return to prana for the community class. Oh yeh... It happens... Yoga forever, and Mondays suck so let's avoid it as long as possible. 

It was an amazing and long weekend.