Then today the universe through me a bone, in a manner of speaking. I was reading my mediation book and the last line for today's was
It seems we always have the choice: to remain a builder of fences or to enter the stream that ignores all fences. - mark nepo
And it was exactly what I needed to hear. I find that when I get in the cycle of stress and stuff I try to plan and organize and get AS MUCH AS I CAN POSSIBLY GRT DONE DONE. Which doesn't make me a better person, does very little to aswage the feeling of uncontrol and sort of makes me into a bit of a pushy bitch.
So today and moving forward. I will try to breath and go with the flow a bit more, and see what, if anything changes.