Monday, April 30, 2012

Singing a song

I'm on a drug induced cloud today.  At least I was :) I realized, or more aptly my mother helped me realize, that I might be pushing myself a bit too much and not taking enough pain medication to boot.  So today I am making a point to take a dose every six hours and not doing too much.  Today I got up at the usual latish time.  Except I need to start putting my phone on vibrate because I keep getting early morning texts from a friend of mine.  I know she means well...but do I really want to have my phone go off at 7:30 when I don't have to get up AT all.. um i think not.   So I'm going to just put it on vibrate and hopefully that elevates the problem. 

I lazed around this morning a bit.  I am trying to eat a lot of roughage because the drugs do nothing good for my GI tract.  So I had berries, spinach, an apple and a banana for breakfast.  Quite healthy if I don't say so myself.  And enjoyed an episode of Dance Moms.  Oh boy do I like my guilty pleasure TV.

I got a few things done on line with my car.  I realized recently that I never changed my address from my last move (2 yrs ago) for my insurance or registration. SO i thought I should do that.  Might be good since I know the RMV is going to be sending me the license plate sticker soon. I knew if I didn't do it while I was thinking about it I would just forget and then get a ticket because I'd forget.  As it is...my inspection sticker expired in march...ooops.  Didn't do that one yet.  I'm planning on having my dad help me out with that tomorrow... since i can't really drive while taking not one but two percocent tablets.. doesn't really work out.

Then the brother and I went to Quiz no's.  Yay for sandwiches.  It was nice to go for a little walk with the bro and of course get something that  I didn't have to make.  Always a bonus.


I spent the afternoon enjoying the sun and reading the third hunger games book.  Its been a lovely day :)

As a side note I have been a bit obsessed with  the instagram ap.  It is so much fun.

Now I'm freezing so I'm going to hunker down for the night. And enjoy dancing with the stars.

I think I might have been a bit drugged this afternoon...but clearly having a good time :) 

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Slow



Today was a very slow day.  Good to be slow.  But slow none the less.  I actually feel kind of funny today.  I took a percocet at 6 so I didn't get up until 10:45 or so. So i feel like i just never got the groove in.  I'm also ways more sore today then I was yesterday.  I'm trying to play with the amount of percocet I'm taking during the day....partially because I felt so good yesterday.  Clearly I'm not quite ready to down grade to 1 tablet.  Cause its not lasting long enough.  For sure. 

Today was very exciting cause I got my eyebrows done.  Thank you...the hair is coming back and it needed to be removed in the unfortunate facial locations.   I love going to Pyara, but I think I'm a bit of a spa treatment junkie.  I went and did that, and the women who does my waxing recommended that I do a facial, which I think I will do.  But I seriously could spend the entire day in there and it wouldn't be enough.  The only downfall is of course my skin sort of turns into a tomato. 
But that's ok. My girl becca does everything in her power and throws everything in her Aveda bag of tricks to make it easier.

After that apt my dad and I made it over to my moms bell concert. She is in a handbell choir. It's sort of cool and the concert was interesting. Except for the very chatty conductor. I hate it when they get chatty. I want to just say shut up and play already. But it was good.

Otherwise I've just been home for the rest of the day. But now im feeling alittle funny.

We'll see how this goes

Friday, April 27, 2012

Fun with instagram

Bruised bum

So the things they don't tell you. I have huge bruises on my hips. It's kind of funny cause I only noticed alittle while ago. Cause I'll admit it. I didn't shower today. Deal with it. But I didn't really do much so it's not a big deal. I watched lots of tv. And read a bunch. I also final sorted out my disability. Woot woot. And I signed for assistant training at Prana. Guess who's getting their feel on ? Me !!! So excited for the next month to pass.

Back to my vegging :)

Thursday, April 26, 2012

And we're done

So today was the day of my second reconstruction surgery. Woot woot. The good thing about this one is the fact it's 1016 and I am in my own bed. With clean sheets and I know I'm not going to get woken up 17 times when people come for rounds. I also have a full bottle of Percocet. So I'm sitting pretty.

It was a long day though. I didn't have to be there until 11 which was nice I a way because it let me sleep in but it also gave me that much more time to worry. I mean I am wracking up enough OR time now that I know I will be fine most likely. But it's a little freaky when you think about it that they are going to be in charge of every bodily function and you'll be completey out. So in waiting around my brain did not appreciate it. Te good thing. Is I stayed call enough not to cry. Score for me.

So they wheeled me in. Drugged me up and did there thing. Another bonus. No post op vomiting. Yay!!!!!!! I was worried about that. But nothing. The stomach was a little uneasy to begin with but now I'm just groggy. So I can take that. And on that not since my eyelids feel like bricks it's time for bed.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Quickee

Mom and I did a quick gym trip today. I'm actually still tired from yesterday's trip. So it was good that we didn't have a lot of time. Cause I don't want to push it too much before the surgery. That doesn't seem like the best idea. I did 10 min of jog walking and then some machines. Different from yesterday. But it was good to move a little. Especially in this weather. It's so gross. The rest of the day was pretty relaxing. Only 3 more days of work :)

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Fun

I had an excellent day. I went to the gym this morning with ma. Which was good. Did one to two min jogs with one min walks for 15 min then did a bunch of weight machines. It's funny. When I'm with am doing the weight machines is not nearly as back. In fact I kind of like it. But alone they seem completely tedious and I can't stand doing them. Though I do a little.

After I had a lovely afternoon roaming around legacy place in dedham with E. who I hadn't seen since new years eve. So it was nice to catch up and hang out for a bit. I also stored some cute stuff at jcrew and Lucy. I know complete opposites in the store department but still very cute stuff. :)

All in all an excellent day

The book and the recipe

The verdict.,.. It's a keeper :)

Friday, April 20, 2012

Cooking crazy

So I had this master plan of blogging about my cooking adventures. Of course when i do cook to blog about it. What I did? How it turned out ect. But of course I cooked for our dept pot luck at work last night and realized tonight that I missed a perfectly good blogging experience. Opps! Fail!

I'll document the recipe and book later. But it got Rae reviews at the pot luck so it will be repeated:)

In other news, work this week felt lost insane. One of the bosses commented that is was because we worked on. A holiday. Which of course is true and of course could very well be it. It's funny how something this simple makes the week fell unbelievable long. The other thing of course is I'm stressing about being out for the next two weeks starting on Thursday. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so anxious about what people thought of me. Cause then I would leave and not give a flying fuck what happened, what I did or didn't finish and the state of which I left stuff. So of course I care, so sue me! So in trying to wrap up stuff so it's not a huge API in the butt for other people. An because it's busy I actually feel bad that I'm going

I swear I need to be hospitalized (mentally) that. Is

I really shouldn't care. But I do. I need to get down the anxiety. Like seriously.

In a goal to that I just got home from hour of power at Prana Cambridge. Thank you Abby , fabulous as usual. I had alittle success today as well. I made it almost all the way through class without taking child's pose woot woot. I mean I still modify but my stamina is definitely improving ALOT! So that is majorly exciting. The second victory was taking fallen triangle o both sides for all the cued breaths! Bo yah!

I'm pooped now, but it was a rock star evening... And. Great way to start te weekend:)

Monday, April 16, 2012

Facebook foible

So I usually don't put personal stuff on Facebook or more accurately stuff about the cancer. Basically to avoid the questions. I also didn't tell alot of people on the phone that I have cancer because I realized it was just awkward to call some on the phone and be like

Hey so I haven't talked to you in 3 months but guess what I have cancer

Ummm no. It was awkward. But needless to say I mentioned something about my upcoming operation on Facebook. And about 10 min later.. Someone I hadn't told anything to commented it. Da oh !!!

It's not like I don't want to tell people but it's alittle odd to tell someone after so much is said and done. But I did call them and had a lovely convo. And laughed a bit at the fact I kept the secret for that long.

But note to self... Leave the personal crap off Facebook

My back is tired

So three yoga classes in three days.... Totally zen awesome but my scapulas are screaming. Thanks to all the yogis this weekend for a clearly awesome workout!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Italian coma

So it's been awhile since I've had Italian food. But oh boy. I'm in chicken parm induced coma at the moment.

One of my KY cousins is in town for a job interview so we went to the chateau in Waltham. It's been an old stand by for the family for years. We actually discussed why we still go their cause it's just an ok restaurant. But try an change anything with my grandfather involved and it's not going to happen. So off we went and had a lovely family meal. Now well fed we'll be watching amazing race... The usual Sunday activity.

Otherwise today I went to another yoga class. It was very athletic, but not particularly zen. Though they did have an assistant who helped alot. It's always amazing to me the difference teachers make when they are essentially all teaching the same thingZ but the main goal was achieved and my back muscles are nice an sore:)

Not back to amazing race and having African Safari envy... Cause they are in Tanzania

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Self care

It's an interesting term "self care " cause of course people all feel like it means something different. I'm not even sure what it means to me today. I want to this unbelievable yoga class at Prana today and it was focused o self care. Care of the body and care of the mind. After about a million assists and 2 hrs of class I definitely feel like my body is well cared for. My mind only partially so. I did end up crying a few times during the practice so I know I had some release. But I am still mentally jumpy. I think I feel like I should be more sociable then I have been lately. And as much as it pains me to say it I wish I had a boyfriend. Maybe I wouldn't feel like such a social weirdo. But I really have to work on myself more.

There is the rub right? When you look for someone it doesn't happen. But it's hard not to feel like stupid having so little luck in that department. But I think I will do what Dan savage says (paraphrased badly) live your life, get out in the world and put yourself out there, and don't get bitter. That Is the goal. :) and here goes nothing. I will focus on self care... And lots of yogi stuff and eventually all will fall into place



I hope

Week in retrospect

This was a busy work week. We are testing all sorts of samples that have to be done quickly. So I ended up testing about 80 samples in 4 days. And still have to process a bunch of them. Arg lots of work. Also I felt like a bit of an idiot because I completely got the amount of time I need off for my next surgery wrong. I said a couple of days where it's more like 2 wks. Big difference right ? So of course I realized this after I emailed my boss who not only is not in Cambridge but is also the director of the group. Talk about embarrassing !!! Yes holy moly, embarrassing.

Other than work I went to the gym one day. I didn't get as much done as I wanted to but it was good to move around. Then I went to Prana 2 music on Friday. Which was awesome as usual. Especially after spending 3.5 hrs at mgh. It was a painfully long appointment to do the pre op check up. Which of course went fine. Because minus the cancer I'm a healthy person. So the idea I'm going to stop Breathing under anesthesia is a bit ridiculous. Needless to say I needed the yoga action and some nice chatting with yoga peps.

Now I'm watching big bang theory o my bed. Awesome and a half :)

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Easter fun

Happy Easter
It was a good weekend. I went to the 11 am service at church which was overall a good message. I did get mobbed alittle on the way out. That was hard. I mean I understand that people want to know and show support. But it was tiring. So 17 awkward conversations later I made it to the car with my sister.

Later we went to brunch at the Marriott hotel. Lots of yummy bacon. I think. I might have a little unhealthy obsession with bacon. But it was perfectly done and tasted great. The one thing that didn't was actually the desserts. Which was funny because they looked amazing. But the mouse I had was in impressive so I didn't bother with anything else.

After we got home it was Easter basket time. Which meant scratch tickets galour. Yay. And buddy shaped chocolate. Double yay.

Otherwise the day was spent lounging. I was feeling pretty lazy so I didn't do much. I did buy my ticket to wanderlust:) I'm soooo excited. Now I just have to book the hotel.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Weekend

Is it really Sunday night again? Geez louise... It's crazy how fast the weekend goes and I don't feel like I even got that much done. Today was a productive good day. Palm Sunday at church. I always like palm Sunday because there is trumpets at the service. So that was good and I like watching the organist feet. Its funny.

Though lately I've been a bit mad at god. It's weird cause when I got diagnosed rev. J said she was mad at god and I didn't really get it. But now I do. I'm definitely mad at god for now. But I know I'll eventually get back there. For now.... I'm mad.

After church I had a lunch with somme aopis. And then I came home and did my taxes. I know exciting. But at least it was a productive day :)