So I'm starting to wonder if I'm a glutton for punishment or an emotional masicist or saitist... Which ever one is the self harm one. Because even though I had a great day but it still left me crying on the way home in the car. I mean not a good sign right?
I mean I deserve to be emotionally happy and full filled right? And sometimes I do things that in theory don't sound like that bad of an idea but in reality are opening old wounds. Again and again... And now I'm sitting on my bed feeling sorry for myself.
Off To bed I suppose